Forever Friends October 26, 2007

 

I often think about this certain incident. I wonder; would I have been able to change something if I reacted differently? Will I ever be able to see her again and tell her what I really wanted to tell her. I’m not sure why I kept silent, why was I reluctant to speak up? Is it because I hardly knew her? I think I remember now. It was, indeed, the fact that she was a stranger to me. I hesitated. I was thinking; why should I bother? And I regret it now. I feel sorry that I missed that opportunity. What could have happened if I did speak up? I feel ashamed for letting my doubts paralyze me. I’ve always had faith in people but there are a lot of things that happen in life that shake those solid grounds you base your beliefs upon. In some situations it works for our benefit but I’m sure that wasn’t the case that day. I’m sure that I lost a great friend, an honest heart and a valuable mentality.

 

It sounds weird but I know we’ll meet again. If not in this life then in the next one and I’ll be able to do what my corrupted mind prevented me from doing. I’ll say what should have been said and I’ll befriend her. I’m sure we’ll make great friends =)

 

Speaking about friends, I miss Lama. I have been blessed by many good friends. Few of them, I just can’t live without but no one will ever be what she was. There is this place in my heart that refuses to be occupied by anyone else except her. But I think this is always the case. No one can ever fill someone else’s space.

 

I miss talking to her. I miss hanging out with her. I miss arguing with her about all sort of things; family, school, movies, books, shopping, politics, religion and the list goes on. I miss knowing that I could see her whenever I wanted to see her. I miss the fact that she knew more about me than I knew about myself. I keep thinking; I’ll get used to not having her around but I never do. How can I get over the closest person to my heart, mind and soul? It won’t happen. I’m not gonna let it happen. I’m gonna keep her memory with me [ كل شي حولي يذكرني بذكراها ] until the day that brings us back together. No matter how long this day is yet to come, I still can see it coming. I can’t perceive any other possibility. I need hope and I need my other precious friends. I need them to hold on to me and go through this journey with me.

 

Funny how whenever I start writing a post I end up writing about my friends. I guess what I have been trying to say in most of my posts sums up in these few words; I think the WORLD of you.

 

An old design I made. 

The ideal life? October 18, 2007

Good friends, good books and a sleepy conscience; this is the ideal life.

 

I found this line somewhere and once I read it I couldn’t get it out of my mind. I wish I had all those 3 elements but I’m close! I have the good friends =) plenty of good books and a sleepy conscience, well, I’m getting there =P

 

Good friends ~

A friend:

(A)ccepts you as you are
(B)elieves in “you”
(C)alls you just to say “HI”
(D)oesn’t give up on you
(E)nvisions the whole of you (even the unfinished parts)
(F)orgives your mistakes
(G)ives unconditionally
(H)elps you
(I)nvites you over
(J)ust “be” with you
(K)eeps you close at heart
(L)oves you for who you are
(M)akes a difference in your life
(N)ever Judges
(O)ffers support
(P)icks you up
(Q)uiets your fears
(R)aises your spirits
(S)ays nice things about you
(T)ells you the truth when you need to hear it
(U)nderstands you
(V)alues you
(W)alks beside you
(X)-plain things you don’t understand
(Y)ells when you won’t listen and
(Z)aps you back to reality

That’s what you are to me and much, much more =)

 

Good books ~

I’m reading this book called Shantaram. Pretty nice but a bit too long. My problem is that I wanna finish everything in an instant which is unrealistic, i know. I’m really enjoying it though.

A few books that I’m eager to read after I finish Shantaram:

- Hegemony or Survival by Noam Chomsky.
- The Afghan by Frederick Forsyth.
- Princess by Jean Sasson.

Heartbreaking September 29, 2007

I have a chemistry test tomorrow. I hate chemistry

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I wanna share with you this song.

It’s the intro of this Ramadhan tv series “عيون من زجاج”

For the talented singer, عادل محمود

Every time I hear this song my heart just breaks.

Why? You will never know!

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I miss Lama

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These are the lyrics:

 

مرت الأيام والحلم أنهدم
لو ندمت الحين وش يفيد الندم
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مابقالي شي غير الله يعين
آه لو أرجع بعمري كم سنه
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كان أصير أنسان ثاني مو أنا
كان أصلح كل غلطات السنين
..
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أرتكبت أخطاء بس الله ستر
وأتخذت اسوء قرارات البشر
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كان لي قلبين مبسوط وحزين
ناس كنت أفهم نصايحهم غلط
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شرهم مع طيبهم فيني أختلط
أكتشفت الحين أنهم طيبين
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ليتني أقدر أرد اللي رحل
ولا أمحي بيدي كل اللي حصل
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آه يا كبر السما وكبر الحنين
خايف الأيام تتوقف هنا
خايف ارحل قبل ماذوق الهنا
خايف تكون آخر أنفاسي أنين
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مرت الأيام والحلم أنهدم

 

The song isn’t very clear. I’ll replace it once I find one with better quality.

Rude!ِ September 27, 2007

When your right is violated, the best solution in my opinion is to argue your case. Sometimes however, the case is hopeless. For example, when a student doesn’t like one of the course’s rules. Arguing to change that rule is just a waste of breath! Especially, if the instructor is strict. They justify their action to be protecting their rights but I don’t think its their right to design the course outline however they want. Of course that would be great but its not our right and therefore we can’t demand it. Some of my classmates are doing so and I think they’re just acting as brats! They still think they’re in school. I would really love telling them that but I wouldn’t wanna lose their friendship, for I highly appreciate the acquaintance of a couple of them.

This is me. If I thought that the word I’m gonna say is gonna hurt the person I’m talking to, even if its true, I prefer not to say it. Well, there are some exceptions of course =P. You can’t be nice and cautious all the time! Some people think it is brave to be frank and say what’s on your mind all the time but I think its rude! No one has any excuse to judge someone and laugh out loud about it in public. I know it takes a very strong will to stop yourself from judging others but taking it out to the public!!!! Hushhhhhhhh, keep it to yourself>> “الناس مب ناقصه ذنوب خاصةً في رمضان “

Oh, and about Ramadhan. There are many things that I wanna talk about regarding Ramadhan but I’m just gonna mention the thing that irritates me the most. Guys, guys, guys.. for god’s sake stop starring, not just because its حـــــــرام but also because its rude! I’ll tell you a funny incident. During the 1st week of Ramadhan I went to one of the shopping malls after finishing my classes, thought it would be empty – which it was in comparison with a normal day. Anyhow, on my way in i saw these 2 guys leaving the mall and I knew they were up to no good. You just know, its pretty clear. While walking forward, I was telling myself, “There’s noway they’re gonna hit on me. We’re in Ramadhan! They’ll be good I’m sure.” Just as I passed by them and was about to “أتنفس الصعداء ” as we say in arabic, one of’em said, “I just wish we weren’t in Ramadhan.” o_O

Honestly, what kinda behavior is that?! Its like he is confused, he doesn’t wanna behave badly but won’t let himself do good either. For those, however, who are doing a good job, please keep it that way.

Anyways, at the end I wanna say: تقبل الله منا ومنكم صالح الأعمال

والسموحة إذا غلطت على حد

Interesting! September 12, 2007

There are few things that grabbed my attention today during my classes. First one was during my Politics class, which I really like by the way. What I thought interesting is our discussion about how applying equality does not mean being fair. For example, if a teacher decided to give the whole class a B+ so that everyone will be equal, it won’t be fair. It won’t be fair because some students might work harder than the rest and deserve more than that grade or visa versa, some students may work less than the others and deserve a lower grade. What’s ironic is that people always, or let me say often because there are some people who like being different. They often long for equality. Thinking about it again, I think we all want to be different in one way or another. That’s why it’s natural for people to compete. I’m confusing myself here!! I can go on and on you know … but let me switch to the next thing

 

The second thing was a question Dr. Michael Ohadi, the executive director of the PI, asked in his lecture today. “Do you wanna be … oopps!! I totally forgot >_<

 

I know, sorry but it was something interesting!!

 

Okay, let’s move to the next thing. The same guy mentioned something about good friends and bad friends. I’ve been aware of this and grateful about it for a while now. I think I’m really lucky. I have a bunch of awesome friends that I wouldn’t trade for the whole wild world. I keep hearing people complaining about their bad experiences with their friends and each time I smile on the inside. I’m really lucky to have friends that I know care about me as much as I care about them. I’m really lucky to have friends that I can depend on. I’m really lucky to have friends that I can share with my good and bad times as well their good and bad times. I’m really lucky =)

New semester August 26, 2007

Summer vacation is over and we’re back to PI. Today was the first day of the new semester. It was great for a first day. A bit short but that can never be bad, huh?

It was nice to see everybody and to be back there. I kinda missed it. However, I’m not feeling so good right now. I just didn’t feel like coming back home and when I got home I was so distracted that I scratched my car while parking. My poor baby It is not that bad but it IS there! I knew though that it would happen sooner or later.

Another thing that is bothering me are my contact lenses. This is almost the third time I wear them and they are irritating. I have this feeling that my eyes are filled with tears when they are actually not! Other than that I’m liking them. I didn’t use to wear my glasses before using them so being able to SEE again feels good!

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In general, I’m quiet satisfied and happy these days except for a hard decision that I have to make. I have to choose between two people I deeply care about. It is either one or the other, no other choice. Oh, wait! There is one; Lying. This really sucks. I truly believe that I am entitled to keep them both but the society we are living in and the mentality of the people is just too arrogant, not to understand (for some people understand it and even sympathize with it) but to accept it. I don’t entirely blame them because what drives them to reject it so violently is their strong emotions. But what am I to do? I really donno

It is like I’m in a war, not between my heart and mind but within my mind. If it was up to my heart, it would have been settled by now. I hate not knowing what’s gonna happen. I know one thing though, I have to do something and do something soon.

Randomly put August 6, 2007

 

I had a dream last night that I felt down and hurt myself. Strangely, I woke up with pain in the same spot!!! Explanation, anyone???

 

Tomorrow I’m leaving to Qatar. I was so excited about going and I still am, but realizing all the stuff that I’m gonna miss on by leaving is putting me off a bit. A lot of people have traveled already but those who are still here are so dear to me. I’ve always appreciated August and I appreciate it this year more than ever. I wish that I could stay here and hang out more with my friends before college

 

Why can’t we all live in one big country? That would make things much easier.

This reminded me; I miss Bi$kiT .. like hell

 

Since it is too late for me to do anything about the traveling plan, I dedicate this quote to all those people I’m gonna miss and those whom I already miss:

 

“You never really leave a place or person you love, part of them you take with you, leaving a part of yourself behind.”

 

It’s surprising how you sometimes feel that you carry enough love in your heart to fill the entire world! I think if every person followed the purest sensations of his/her heart, the world won’t be such a mess.

 

Ok, I am literally suffocated by mixed feelings! So I’ll leave it here. I don’t know when my next post is gonna be, but until then, hope you all live well.

 

Yours,

Nada

بلادكم حلوه .. بس الوطن ما له مثيل August 2, 2007

God I’ve missed UAE o shewaaare3 UAE o everything in UAE ella el-7ar of course =P

I didn’t stay long in Salalah but those few days were enough to make me appreciate my beloved country. I’m not saying that I didn’t have fun or that the seen there isn’t absolutely amaZing but reaLLy >>بـــلادنـا عـــــز . I’m talking about the facilities. Let me say about this no more. I enjoyed my time there [period]

 

Here are some pics that I took.

 

 

 

 

 

 

The trip was exhausting, true! but it was sO worth it as you see.

Back July 15, 2007

Hey everybody *waves*

Been a while since I last posted, a month!

You know how things get messed up in summer.

I kinda miss ayam el-dewam but this is not bad at all

I’m writing this post, like most of my other posts, sitting on my ever beloved bed.

This is a bad habit that I’m getting used to, using my bed as my working station.

I actually do this when I have no studying or writing to do, nothing that has to do with pens.

Thats what stops me really, ugly ink stains on my sheets.

Hmm….

Sorry I’m just wondering how I ended up talking about my bed sheets.

Wait, let me scroll up ^

Oh ya. I was saying that I’m sitting on my bed with a sore body from yesterday’s activity.

I’ve literally been everywhere.

Met some dear old school friends

It was great to see them.

My bro 7amood turned 5 yesterday ^_^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to him \o/

About the past month, I was really busy with my family.

Our relatives visited us from Qatar.

I really miss them but I’m gonna see them soon inshalla

Right now I wanna relax for a while but i know that’s not gonna happen.

For when you really long for something it does not turn out the way you want it to.

Anyways, this will be the end of this entry.

I’ll be writing again soon.

Salam

TV series June 14, 2007

 

I really hate those TV series. I mean does watching people dying and things getting more and more complicated is supposed to be entertaining? I can’t believe that people actually enjoy watching those things. Let me talk about Prison Break first. I admit that I did enjoy watching season 1 but then things got too .. silly! The ending of season 2 is really ridiculous!! I mean it’s not even an ending. He goes back to jail!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m not even interested in watching season 3.

 

And Heroes!! Ok, the story is kinda cool. I like the characters and everything but i hate the fact that everything keeps getting complicated and just when things seem to be working on, it all gets messy again. Why can’t the story develop gradually toward a happy ending ~ saving the world. Seriously, I enjoy watching movies much more than a TV series. A movie always has an ending, maybe not always satisfying but you can at least call it an ending.

 

Just wanted to write this coz everyone is just so fond of these shows!

So this is to say that I am not.