Trouble-minded May 15, 2007

Been trying to get myself into posting something ever since I came back from Qatar. I had and still have a lot to say but i just can’t get them out. I’ll just write whatever pops into my head right now.

 

Hmmmmmmm …

 

There are a lot of things that are troubling me lately. Final exams are one of these things. They’re gonna start next week but I’ve gotta admit they’re not my biggest concerns.

 

Ok, I don’t feel like saying more.

 

You’re my secret place,
where I can be myself.
You connect with me,
like nobody else.
Even though our circumstances changed,
our love still remains.
Keep me on the ground,
still you help me fly,
You taught me to be patient,
I taught you to rely,
so no matter what tomorrow brings,
we got the simple things.

 

I really need that person.

"The whole system must sleep torpid a while." February 26, 2007

 

All I want is my peace of mind. Is that too much to ask for??!!
I’ve always believed that ra7at el-ensaan aham shay. Bss raa7ty seems to be so hard to reach. I don’t even know wain ra7ty =(
I’m so confused and elly ye8har that no one around me 7aas feeny. They are all wondering what happened to me all of a sudden. They keep telling me its fatra o bet3addy.
Oh, how I wish for someone to get me out of this deep dark hole.
I wish that someone would take my hand and guide me to the right direction.

 

They say crying makes you feel better, well I cried a lot but it didn’t make me feel any better. The more I cry, the weaker I feel. The weaker I feel, the deeper I sink.

 

Everyone is surprised, “how come you feel this way? Since when?” They have no idea whats going deep inside of me. I’ve always kept my feelings to myself, locked them in and gave the key to no one but one dear friend. Today my dear friend isn’t here. My dear friend isn’t by my side. My dear friend can’t hold my hand. My dear friend can’t wipe my tears. My dear friend can’t cure my wounds. Oh, how much I need you my dear friend.