From: nada To: other nada June 24, 2009

Hey other nada,

 

First, IT TOOK ME AGES TO READ YOUR EMAIL!!!! But I enjoyed every bit *winks*. Sorry about not staying in touch but I didn’t know what number to contact you on!! Anyways, I wanna tell you about some of the stuff going on here (here, as in my head) so that you don’t feel disconnected ^^.

 

So summer courses started – oh, and today was the second time I saw DD ever since the summer course started =O !! So summer school started and those raccoons invaded the PI (I would’ve said monkeys but monkeys are funnier!). It sucks, so I suggest that when we take over the world .. we ban them from ever coming near PI again!! Oh, and I want NADA fireworks on the day the earth is ours. And, I say the earth coz we should keep on going and invade more planets. I want Mars and Pluto, btw =P.

 

Leadership course is really interesting but I hate filwa for attending the class and getting to enjoy it without actually having to do all the work >.>

 

What does it mean when a teach winks to you??!!!! I find it very confusing. I mean what message am I supposed to receive here!! Did you like my work? Are you flirting? Is there dirt in your eyes? Hmmm … confusing! I think they should stop doing that!!

 

I was at the conriche yesterday with my sis when a bunch of guys on jet skies spotted us. They came so near, it scared me! Then I saw this guy waving and guess what, he wanted to give us a ride!! Seriously! Honestly, I was dying to try it out but not like thaaat!! So we ran away. 7uuuh, and when we reach the car we saw this gay guy! He was like nothing I’ve seen before. Eww, the real deal!

 

My friend lama came from Egypt last night \o/. I saw her today. Soo happy. Her mom put on some weight but she looks adorable! Dana and m7ammad (her siblings) grew taller, but she didn’t change! It’s as if it was yesterday when I saw her for the last time.

 

Saturday is  hind’s birthday and sara b’s wedding. I wanna attend both! I think I will! But let’s see; the birthday thing is from 4 to 6. I can go directly from there to the hairdresser. Hm, I’ll be optimistic and say that will take an hour. I’ll come back home and get ready in hour. It’ll be 8 and I’ll still have like an hour to get there but I only need 15 coz the hotel is close to our house. Ops, I have an essay due Sunday!

 

We’re going to Qtr on the 15th of July =D *very excited*

 

Will send you again when I have more to share ^^. Xoxo

 

Say hello to Egypt =P
Oooooh, I want pictures!! Lots of pictures. Random pictures of Egypt.

 

Love,
Nada

AnnoYinG! August 29, 2008

Hey you all *waves*

 

This post is gonna talk about >some< of the things that annoyed me during the past few days.

 

First, I’ll talk about a certain behavior that I really hate. It goes like this:

 

Ring .. ring .. riing ..

 

Nada: Helloooo … how are you?

 

Person: Heeey .. I’m good .. Where have you been? Are you that busy or did you just forget about me? I heard that you called *another person* the other day? So you miss *another person* more than me?!!

 

EXCUSE me, I’m the one who called. If you’re so better than me why haven’t you called first??!!

 

That was the worst scenario of course. There are other people that call and ask about me but have to repeat the whole “why-aren’t-you-asking-about-me” talk every single time they call. Guys, I know you love me and all but PLEASE GIVE ME A BREAK!

 

Another kind of people who just don’t understand that I AM BUSY, for real!! Come on, do you think I’m faking it or something?! Don’t you think I wanna go out, relax, talk, chat, shop, play and much, much more! The only reason I’m not doing all that is that I CAN’T. Shame on you to think that I’m just trying to avoid be proud or anything like that.

 

**WARNING: MOOD SHIFT!!

 

Thinking about this reminds me of those who always find excuses for me when I’m away, pardon me when I keep them on hold and welcome me back with their sweetest smile when I come their way. Those who understand, forgive, appreciate and love me infinitely, expecting nothing back in return.

 

{Teddy} – You’re the Best I’ve ever had or will ever have. I think the world of you.

 

{SLPT} – You’re the Ideal friend. “فيـــك متمــادي غــروري”

 

{Stell} – You’re a Must. Life, love, success, kindness and faith are all not the same without you.

 

From all the people I’ve known in my life, these are the ones I wanna hold on to forever. Without them, my world is incomplete. Have you ever known someone whom you cant stop hugging while you’re around him/her, well, that’s how I feel about those three. I feel like keeping them close to my heart coz thats where they belong.

 

One last whisper to them, “I love you”.

 

**WARNING: MOOD SHIFT!!

 

The other thing that I really really hate is RapidShare. I have never been able to download a single thing from that **** website. I don’t understand why people use it anyway. There are hundreds of free file hosting sites that work great. I wish that RapidShare shuts down but not as much as I wish Etisalat to do so of course. I just know that sooner or later Etisalat is gonna go DOWN and I can’t wait for that day to come. I’ll through a party and print this on the invitations, “YES!! Etisalat has gone DOWN =D”.

 

Me is sleepy – Me wants to sleep – Me is going to sleep

Crucial Update July 3, 2008

It’s been a really long time and I forgot how to start =P

 

Of course I’ve got no one to blame but myself and my laziness. I’m really surprised that there are people still visiting the blog. And I owe them an apology. Sorry for being so damn lazy, pardon my language =$

 

OK, I guess the right thing to do now is give you an update about myself (that sounded cocky – sorry, it’s just been a while and I feel like I’ve lost the blogging spirit!). Anyhow, I’m taking a summer course right now (Econ). It’s not all bad so far. Waking up in the morning is a real bummer but other than that its fine. This way I get to wake up in the morning, go out after class and do so many things I’ve always missed on doing during the summer because of staying up late and sleeping till noon. Of course I wake up tired coz I didn’t have enough sleep coz mom won’t let me sleep and miss noon prayer. Which reminds me, mom is totally overwhelmed with her new job and Marwa gets to sleep till 3 or even 4 pm. That is SOOO noT fair! << I sound like a kid, don’t I??

 

I’ve also joined a gym. This is the second week I guess. I like it. The trainer of course told me that I shouldn’t spend more than one hour in the gym, wouldn’t some people love to hear that? =P I haven’t used the pool yet but I’m hoping I’d start this weekend. Oh and about the weekend, my aunts and cousins are visiting from Qatar. I’m kinda sad that they’d have to come when I have a summer course coz this means I won’t be able to stay up with them. And that is what they do mainly, they sleep most of the day and stay up all night. But hey, it’s better than nothing. Having them here I mean.

 

Let’s see.. What else? Oh, I’ve got two papers that I’ve gotta write. One is for the Econ course and the other one is for a conference. The one for the conference is stressing me out a bit but I sat down yesterday and wrote an outline so it should be fine. What troubles me most of the time is the starting point, once that is settled everything just flows after that. The professors’ hopes are really high about it but I’m just hoping it turns out as good as everything else turned out to be.

 

Wait, did I talk about the weather? Coz I really wanna talk about the weather.

 

The weather is AWFUL. I’m not sure if it’s always been like that (my guess is that it has) because I used to sleep and not go out during the day every other summer I can remember. So I wouldn’t be able to give a fair comparison but I can give you a fair description of the weather now.

 

The weather is UNBEARABLE. I don’t wanna affect the economy or whatever but I honestly can’t see why tourists come here to tour!! I mean, obviously they’re attracted by the pretty malls, big hotels, clean beaches and many other facilities but to me it’s just NOT worth it. << Am I being ungrateful to my country here? No, I’m just being honest.

 

One more thing that makes me hate the weather is that I hate sweating. I think everyone does.

 

OK, I think I’ve said enough about the weather =P

 

Guess this is it. I’ll leave some for later on.

 

This was fun ^^.

To-do April 19, 2008

I’ve honestly been trying to post something ever since I’ve written my last post but I just, believe it or not, can’t find the time to do so. I’m not saying that I don’t have any free time but I have to be in the mood to write and can’t just bring myself to write at any time. It needs mazaaaj =P (I know, lame excuse but it’s true!).

 

Hmm..

 

I’ve got lots of things to say that I dunno where to start. Let’s start with the things I should do today. I have a physics test tomorrow and I haven’t started studying yet. I don’t think I’ve ever mentioned it here (I know, my fault coz I haven’t been posting – shame on me >.< ) but physics 1 is just so much, and I mean SO MUCH work. It’s not as bad as it was in the beginning of the semester though or maybe I’m just getting used to it! Something else I’m getting used to is staying in PI till 5pm everyday. Never imagined I would but seems that I am. I still come back tired but it isn’t as bad as it was before. Another thing I have to do is my C++ homework. Last time I handed in my homework incomplete and knowing it was wrong but I didn’t care. I just wanted to get rid of it. After all, it only counts for 1% of my final grade >.>

 

I have to prepare handouts for the IEEE competition. I kinda regret getting into this coz I’m not really interested in the project we’re working on. Anyhow, I can’t get out of it now. I also have to start working on the STEPS design report which I know is a hell lot of work. I can see it giving me a headache until it’s due day, Tuesday. About headaches, I’ve been getting frequent headaches for a while now. I can mention 50, or more, reasons for these headaches but I’ll spare you the agony.

 

Weekends are just so SHORT.

 

More news about me:

 

I’m trying to eat better to gain some weight. So sick of people telling me that I lost weight. I’m also doing it coz my health is going down the hill. I’m much much weaker than I was before. A few weeks ago I fainted twice after closing the door on my fingers. I do that often by the way. Once it was worst and there was blood involved but I didn’t faint. So that was like a traffic sign that said, “STOP!! This is going too far.” And, el-7emdellah. I’m already feeling a difference. I come home still having some energy in my cells. Of course, it only stays until صلاة المغرب and then I’m all drowsy. I put on one of my smallest jeans yesterday (by the way, none of my jeans fit me anymore) and it actually fit me better. Not totally but we’re making a progress here.

 

I wanna write more but I’ll leave the rest for next time and I promise I’ll make that soon =$

Bored & Lonely November 13, 2007

 

I feel really bored and it’s affecting my mood. Nothing seems to take me out of this mood. I would laugh for a few minutes but then I’d go back to the same dark circle. Whatever I would be thinking about, it all seems to come back to one point; “I feel lonely.” I’m saying I feel coz I’m not really lonely but that’s how I feel! What brought the idea to my mind was this: I was having lunch with one of my classmates yesterday. We were talking about our courses and I started complaining about chemistry and how glad I am that this is the last chemistry course I’m ever gonna take. So she said, “You never know, they might change their mind and add it to your requirements.” That wasn’t the first time she’d said that but then she said, “Inshalla, I really hope they do.” Now that shocked me. I spend most of my time in the PI with this girl and she is supposed to be my friend. I felt bad, really bad for myself. I was quite and it hit me, I feel lonely. I’ve often felt this way during the past year and I’ve got used to it. But this time is different. It stuck with me and I can’t seem to get rid of it!

I just hope it doesn’t stay much longer. I have a lot to get done and I don’t need this right now

 

[Updated @ 10:32 pm]

 

I feel much better الحمــدالله ^^

 

I know reading this post made those dearest to me sad, but don’t be. I only feel lonely coz I miss you guys so much and I need you to be with me all the time. I’m jealous. Here, I said it. I’m jealous of all those best friends that get to spend a lot of time together and enjoy each other’s company. Why can’t we have the same chance?

 

Love you all <3

Stella’s 19th candle October 30, 2007

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

dear Stella

\o/

 

 

 

I was planning to write a poem =P

 

But I can’t find the words!

 

Wish all your dreams and desires come true.

 

Love you WAYED <3

 

كـــــــل عـــــــام وانتـــي بـالــف خيــــــــــر

^^

 

Red-lining my life! October 27, 2007

 

 

“Red-lining a motorcycle means opening the throttle so hard, with every change of gears, that the needle on the rev-counter is twisted all the way round to the red zone of maximum revolutions. And that’s what we were doing, all of us, in our different ways, Karla and Didier and Abdullah and I: we were red-lining our lives. And Lisa. And Maurizio. Twisting the needle to the red zone.”

- Shantaram, Gregory David Roberts.

 

Am I too red-lining my life, twisting the needle to the red zone?

Keep on reading..

 

Something weird has been happening to me lately but I only noticed it today. Little stuff have been making me very angry. What’s the word? Oh ya, outraged! True. I may not reflect it on the outside but I would be burning on the inside. A few days ago I found out that my new t-shirts were no more new. They ruined them instead of washing them. I was so upset about it which made me wonder; why am I so upset? Something similar happened today when I was watching tv in the living room. It also got me wondering; why so angry Nada? But again I wasn’t showing it. I was perfectly calm on the outside but it was eating me on the inside. Maybe that’s exactly the problem. I never let out. With that figured, the solution is easy. Let out more often. Wrong! It’s not that easy. Last time I let go and expressed it, it created an awful seen. I was pointed out to be a spoiled, thankless and cruel daughter. Not something I’d like to repeat.

 

I think I might know one thing that might help. Sport! But, hmmmm .. What kinda sport? What about boxing? Sounds good to me. I think I’ll go to the gym tomorrow and see what I can do there.

 

 

Sport might help solving the problem but it’s not gonna solve it. I need to work on the reasons behind me being so angry. When thinking about it I can list a lot of reasons but the only one I can actually work on is my anger towards myself. Yeah, I’m so mad at myself. I always seem to remind myself of the things I shouldn’t and should have done. I know this is wrong. I even remember myself telling one of my friends once that sometimes we have to forgive ourselves, that that is the only way we can move on. I’ve already applied it with some of the mistakes I’ve made. I don’t think I would have been able to go on if I didn’t forgive myself but part of my brain always reminds me of my faults. It shouldn’t but it does, I know that. Just as I know that I shouldn’t eat myself on the inside but I’m doing it. The only thing that I think will solve this, is me improving myself. How? That’s hard to determine. The answer is too long I guess. Will I be able to do it? I don’t knoW! But I better be coz I can’t take this anymore

 

Someone thinks I’m being too harsh on myself. I DISAGREE, big time. Being lazy and slacking is what got me here in the first place. Just wish me luck people and I’ll let you know how it goes with me.

 

Forever Friends October 26, 2007

 

I often think about this certain incident. I wonder; would I have been able to change something if I reacted differently? Will I ever be able to see her again and tell her what I really wanted to tell her. I’m not sure why I kept silent, why was I reluctant to speak up? Is it because I hardly knew her? I think I remember now. It was, indeed, the fact that she was a stranger to me. I hesitated. I was thinking; why should I bother? And I regret it now. I feel sorry that I missed that opportunity. What could have happened if I did speak up? I feel ashamed for letting my doubts paralyze me. I’ve always had faith in people but there are a lot of things that happen in life that shake those solid grounds you base your beliefs upon. In some situations it works for our benefit but I’m sure that wasn’t the case that day. I’m sure that I lost a great friend, an honest heart and a valuable mentality.

 

It sounds weird but I know we’ll meet again. If not in this life then in the next one and I’ll be able to do what my corrupted mind prevented me from doing. I’ll say what should have been said and I’ll befriend her. I’m sure we’ll make great friends =)

 

Speaking about friends, I miss Lama. I have been blessed by many good friends. Few of them, I just can’t live without but no one will ever be what she was. There is this place in my heart that refuses to be occupied by anyone else except her. But I think this is always the case. No one can ever fill someone else’s space.

 

I miss talking to her. I miss hanging out with her. I miss arguing with her about all sort of things; family, school, movies, books, shopping, politics, religion and the list goes on. I miss knowing that I could see her whenever I wanted to see her. I miss the fact that she knew more about me than I knew about myself. I keep thinking; I’ll get used to not having her around but I never do. How can I get over the closest person to my heart, mind and soul? It won’t happen. I’m not gonna let it happen. I’m gonna keep her memory with me [ كل شي حولي يذكرني بذكراها ] until the day that brings us back together. No matter how long this day is yet to come, I still can see it coming. I can’t perceive any other possibility. I need hope and I need my other precious friends. I need them to hold on to me and go through this journey with me.

 

Funny how whenever I start writing a post I end up writing about my friends. I guess what I have been trying to say in most of my posts sums up in these few words; I think the WORLD of you.

 

An old design I made. 

Heartbreaking September 29, 2007

I have a chemistry test tomorrow. I hate chemistry

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I wanna share with you this song.

It’s the intro of this Ramadhan tv series “عيون من زجاج”

For the talented singer, عادل محمود

Every time I hear this song my heart just breaks.

Why? You will never know!

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I miss Lama

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These are the lyrics:

 

مرت الأيام والحلم أنهدم
لو ندمت الحين وش يفيد الندم
..
مابقالي شي غير الله يعين
آه لو أرجع بعمري كم سنه
..
كان أصير أنسان ثاني مو أنا
كان أصلح كل غلطات السنين
..
..
أرتكبت أخطاء بس الله ستر
وأتخذت اسوء قرارات البشر
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كان لي قلبين مبسوط وحزين
ناس كنت أفهم نصايحهم غلط
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شرهم مع طيبهم فيني أختلط
أكتشفت الحين أنهم طيبين
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ليتني أقدر أرد اللي رحل
ولا أمحي بيدي كل اللي حصل
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آه يا كبر السما وكبر الحنين
خايف الأيام تتوقف هنا
خايف ارحل قبل ماذوق الهنا
خايف تكون آخر أنفاسي أنين
..
مرت الأيام والحلم أنهدم

 

The song isn’t very clear. I’ll replace it once I find one with better quality.

Interesting! September 12, 2007

There are few things that grabbed my attention today during my classes. First one was during my Politics class, which I really like by the way. What I thought interesting is our discussion about how applying equality does not mean being fair. For example, if a teacher decided to give the whole class a B+ so that everyone will be equal, it won’t be fair. It won’t be fair because some students might work harder than the rest and deserve more than that grade or visa versa, some students may work less than the others and deserve a lower grade. What’s ironic is that people always, or let me say often because there are some people who like being different. They often long for equality. Thinking about it again, I think we all want to be different in one way or another. That’s why it’s natural for people to compete. I’m confusing myself here!! I can go on and on you know … but let me switch to the next thing

 

The second thing was a question Dr. Michael Ohadi, the executive director of the PI, asked in his lecture today. “Do you wanna be … oopps!! I totally forgot >_<

 

I know, sorry but it was something interesting!!

 

Okay, let’s move to the next thing. The same guy mentioned something about good friends and bad friends. I’ve been aware of this and grateful about it for a while now. I think I’m really lucky. I have a bunch of awesome friends that I wouldn’t trade for the whole wild world. I keep hearing people complaining about their bad experiences with their friends and each time I smile on the inside. I’m really lucky to have friends that I know care about me as much as I care about them. I’m really lucky to have friends that I can depend on. I’m really lucky to have friends that I can share with my good and bad times as well their good and bad times. I’m really lucky =)