Choas November 17, 2007

 

I’m so disappointed that although I’ve been disappointed for so many fucking times, it still disappoints me! I start building up those mountains of expectations and affection for a certain he or she and then bang, the whole thing blows up in my face. And do I ever learn? Nope. If I could only stop being so naive and not have too much faith in people.

 

Things I feel like doing right now: <bullet> burn out my hair. Aha, the hair that sits on my head. Ya, my very own hair. You read it right. <new bullet> Redecorate my room. I hate the fact that everything revolves around my bed (something I liked at the very beginning). I’m in such a twisted mood that I want everything around to be twisted too. Oh, and that huge wall-to-wall-floor-to-ceiling-window is getting on my nerves. As a matter of fact, everything is getting on my nerves today.

 

I had this BOBYS’ chicken burger and boy, am I not liking BOBYS delicious-above-average junk food. And that corn salad, bloody brilliant! Waleed, cheers for the awesome food you provide to our ignorant-tasteless-replica-lovers population. Note to self: grab that orange slush you’ve been craving for next time you pass by.

 

They’re airing a musical on mbc 2 at the moment. I don’t remember the so-called-musical’s name (such a waste of free ram me thought). Here goes my review of the unnamed-so-called musical: Lame, lame, lame. And oh, LAME.

 

I read something today written by, umm, someone. Very impressed I am with it. I say it again, very impressed. The commenting part leaves me uncomfortable though. I found it so exceptional that I cannot fairly judge it. To the author (and I insist on using the word; author) aaaaa ~!#@##%$#$%$^%&$&%^……………………….

 

 

ERROR: BRAIN OVER HEATED. BRAIN OVER HEATED.

SHUT DOWN IN 3, 2, 1 and ….. [blank]

Bored & Lonely November 13, 2007

 

I feel really bored and it’s affecting my mood. Nothing seems to take me out of this mood. I would laugh for a few minutes but then I’d go back to the same dark circle. Whatever I would be thinking about, it all seems to come back to one point; “I feel lonely.” I’m saying I feel coz I’m not really lonely but that’s how I feel! What brought the idea to my mind was this: I was having lunch with one of my classmates yesterday. We were talking about our courses and I started complaining about chemistry and how glad I am that this is the last chemistry course I’m ever gonna take. So she said, “You never know, they might change their mind and add it to your requirements.” That wasn’t the first time she’d said that but then she said, “Inshalla, I really hope they do.” Now that shocked me. I spend most of my time in the PI with this girl and she is supposed to be my friend. I felt bad, really bad for myself. I was quite and it hit me, I feel lonely. I’ve often felt this way during the past year and I’ve got used to it. But this time is different. It stuck with me and I can’t seem to get rid of it!

I just hope it doesn’t stay much longer. I have a lot to get done and I don’t need this right now

 

[Updated @ 10:32 pm]

 

I feel much better الحمــدالله ^^

 

I know reading this post made those dearest to me sad, but don’t be. I only feel lonely coz I miss you guys so much and I need you to be with me all the time. I’m jealous. Here, I said it. I’m jealous of all those best friends that get to spend a lot of time together and enjoy each other’s company. Why can’t we have the same chance?

 

Love you all <3