Untitled May 30, 2007

 

We were watching my brother’s graduation video today and while watching, all my school concerts rushed to my mind. I loved them. I loved practicing. I loved making the dresses. I loved performing in front of the proud parents. They make a great audience by the way. They would just cheer for anything, be it good or bad, just to encourage their kids. And that is just great. I loved it.

 

 

Yup, that was me, 13 years ago I suppose. Sorry for the bad quality. I just scanned and zoomed it. The gurl on my right was my best friend. Her name was Salwa. To Salwa: where ever you are, Thank you for being my friend She is the only one I remember from our class plus a boy named Salem. I’m sure though if I ever saw them, I won’t recognize them

 

I donno what made me write about this!!

 

Today, I had a yard test (for my driving license) but I missed it, thinking today was Tuesday. Waaayed en8ehart when I found out. Now I should book another appointment and god knows when will that be! My last final exam was on Sunday. Tomorrow our grades will be out but I know them all except the math grade. Got As in computer and communication and B in the science course (chemistry+physics) *jumps around*. I was so pleased when I saw the science mark coz I did terrible in the physics exam. I still think I failed it but managed to get a B after calculating the average.

 

Hmm, what else do I wanna say? I forgot =S loool

 

Later

Wasting Time May 17, 2007

 

Woke up today, not feeling like waking up. Tried to drag myself outta bed for about 45 minutes but no use. At 7:15, I gave it up and tried to go back to sleep. Not sure if I succeeded. I don’t really remember!!
Anyways, instead of going to my classes I thought I’d stay at home and start studying for my finals. But whom am I kidding! That was never the case with me. Never ever. Why will things change now?! Not that I don’t wanna study. I sincerely do but I just can’t. And there is nothing i can do about it.
I had breakfast in front of the TV at 10, something that I really miss. Then headed upstairs to my room. Said I’ll check my email and the regular feeds then start on with my studying. Deep in side of me, I just knew that will NOT happen. Here I am at 1:45pm > haven’t touched a book.

 

You know what, enough about studying. It’s making me feel sick. Let me just take you through what I’ve came across since 10am.

 

 

• I bookmarked a lot of blogs which means I’ll have something to read in the 1st couple of weeks of the summer vacation. Oh , about reading. How I miss my books! Dunno how I managed to keep my hands off of’em so far. Let’s just hope this doesn’t change before the finals are over.

 

 

• New decision. I made up my mind that I should forget about the “leaving PI” issue for the mean time. After the exams I’ll give my full attention to it. As a result, I may put it into action or not. According to what Nada vs. Nada negotiation ends up with. And that is it. I will not let anyone affect my decision. I’ve had enough of people’s opinions. It is about time I pay attention to my own opinion. I need a clear idea of what that really is (my opinion).

 

 

• Something to work on. While eating breakfast, I was thinking of how much I needed to talk to someone right at that moment. Tried to call and sms some people but no reply. Didn’t blame them. It was 10:30 am and everyone is busy. Can’t possibly expect everyone to be free whenever I need a chat. I always hated needing someone but it’s just the way we are and I can’t help it. I hope that I can pull this out. I’ll try to convince myself that I don’t need anyone to make me feel better. I’ll try believing that I can do just fine on my own. I’ll try as much as possible to be emotionally independent.

 

• Something to laugh at.

 

 

I don’t think this needs a comment. *Lol* I just dunno what made her ask that question. I love that gurl. She brings the hell out of me sometimes but I still love her. She does whatever she does and then comes back the next day with the most innocent face, like nothing ever happened. [Memory flood] God, I miss those days *sigh*

 

Hmm ..

 

I’m sure there is still more to say but my tummy is craving for food. Maybe I’ll update later on today

 

Amazing how you find a hell lot to do or to say when you should be studying!

 

Bye for now

Trouble-minded May 15, 2007

Been trying to get myself into posting something ever since I came back from Qatar. I had and still have a lot to say but i just can’t get them out. I’ll just write whatever pops into my head right now.

 

Hmmmmmmm …

 

There are a lot of things that are troubling me lately. Final exams are one of these things. They’re gonna start next week but I’ve gotta admit they’re not my biggest concerns.

 

Ok, I don’t feel like saying more.

 

You’re my secret place,
where I can be myself.
You connect with me,
like nobody else.
Even though our circumstances changed,
our love still remains.
Keep me on the ground,
still you help me fly,
You taught me to be patient,
I taught you to rely,
so no matter what tomorrow brings,
we got the simple things.

 

I really need that person.